Delicious Feelings

Tuxedos

2009-02-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

For the both of us.

2009-02-05T00:40:00.005+08:00

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice.

And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Run - Snow Patrol

ANGELYN

2009-01-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hello kitchen~

2009-01-11T11:43:00.001+08:00

SOMEBODY GET ME THIS BOOK NOW!!!

sickening.

2008-11-22T14:52:00.001+08:00

its sickening how you would not let me do what i want for my life.
because of your sickening ego and 'no'
you've just started war.

My itsy bitsy world

2008-09-07T15:53:00.003+08:00

i have a little dollhouse, sometimes there is only me. somtimes there are some other people in it. im selfish. i own the dollhouse, and it is mine. i decide who to put in it and who to take out. im a selfish girl who does not show the world to my dolls. i control what they eat, what they do, what they think. im a control freak. i dont care what they want or what they need, what i care is what i get out of them. fun. i dont share, i make them do what i want them to do. i love them, i hate them, i kiss them, i slap them.i dress them and undress them. i suck the life and happiness out of them. nobody knows anything about this. its just me. in my head.

A day out to music matsuri

2008-08-30T23:45:00.004+08:00

I enjoyed my day at swensens with these two lovelies!
Charmaine and Magdalene.
we are all nurses!

the rest of the pictures are in my facebook album. ^_^

thank you charmaine, for the wonderful pictures! <3>

Thank not Ask

2008-08-11T20:52:00.001+08:00

WE THANK GOD FOR THINGS.
NOT ASK HIM FOR THINGS.

Olfactory notes

2008-08-03T16:30:00.007+08:00

i fell in love with scents when i was 8.

that was when i got my first bottle of perfume.

i could still remeber how it smelt like, but its long extinct now.

not very nice though, i wanted it because it made me feel grown up.

i like how people communicate by smelling each other.

it makes one person whole.

i like smelling things and people. i think its a habit.

smelling nice is important to me,

maybe that's why i like bathing and have over 15 bottles of perfume in my cupboard.

i know i'm mad.

boring things

2008-06-09T18:12:00.002+08:00

BORING choreshomeworkprojectsexamsschoolricepotatoes
SURPRISES vacationchocolatecandypresentsicingoncakes

"Mass is boring. Like rice and potatoes. The exciting things in life is like icing on cakes. You can't live on icing alone. It is the boring things like rice and potatoes that nourishes and grow you."

Fr Leon

Nightmare

2008-05-31T12:41:00.003+08:00

Pain granted me wings to fly.
I took flight out of your sight.
You tormented, cried and pleaded,
and did not stop with your endless search.
The south winds blew me back to you.
I struggled to fly again,
you robbed me of my wings and made me human.
Tears warmed my cheeks,

I realised I love you. Very much.

Random thought 2

2008-05-20T00:56:00.004+08:00

Telling someone you love him/her without meaning it is just being nimcompoopish.

I meant it.

Somelight

2008-05-17T14:28:00.002+08:00

20% of the world's population sneeze in reaction when looking up to bright light.

Im one of the 20%.

Try it yourself, sunlight is best. Don't look directly. It fries your eyes.

Man behind the factory

2008-05-14T21:33:00.003+08:00

Whipped cream will not be called whipped cream unless it is whipped with whips.

Everybody knows that!

-Willy Wonka, Roald Dahl.

no time to remember how to do APA referencing.

DIE! nursing school DIE! Heh.

light headed

2008-05-10T21:56:00.002+08:00

feel like somebody is sucking out my csf.
mad. yes? no?
my feelings are as constipated as my bowels.
i need to poop.

p.s. just being a little crzy. no, crazy.

shut up

2008-05-07T10:56:00.003+08:00

don't wanna talk about it
don't wanna think about it
stop reminding me
don't bring me back to struggling with myself
i have made my decision, somehow its what both of you want.
you convinced me to try, so stop telling me i can quit anytime now!
i will kill myself knowing i have wasted so much time.
stop crying, stop feeling sorry,
you are not making me feel any better.
it is not helping.

love is still there, but some part of me still hates...

How i dread school.

2008-04-13T22:54:00.001+08:00

Only things I love about school is
Fiona, Eddy, Japanese class, Friday afternoons,
and the fact that it is near Terence's school.

Unagi

2008-04-09T00:50:00.001+08:00

Aiyo the poor fish already has no arms or legs and you are still complaining when you are eating it?

Random thought.

2008-03-29T15:06:00.001+08:00

Be nice to me or i will run away.

Breakfast at Provence

2008-03-04T21:21:00.002+08:00

with 'stone' minds and happy hearts.
with Japanese bread and sandwiches.
with the right company.
waking up early doesn't seem that bad after all.

Ingredients for a perfect afternoon.

2008-03-04T21:00:00.006+08:00

p.b.f x 1
Gerri x 1
beef noodles x 2 soup x 1 dry
dessert x 3 yogurt ice-cream in martini glasses
cake x 1 that says JUDE
fruits x 1 plate seedless grapes, x 1 plate strawberries
much story telling x whatever the content

Ingredients may vary according to one's preference.
Try it for yourself.
100% satisfaction guaranteed.

How about a penny?

2008-02-26T21:02:00.002+08:00

A penny.
A dollar.
50 cents for you.
And the 10 million dollars.
Many questions and answers were bought and sold.
I am a happy customer and sales person.

Thank You.

Thank You and hope to see you again.

I feel so much richer now. With the 10 million dollars.

Pretty Pretty Friday

2008-02-23T22:54:00.005+08:00

Me: Hey! A puddle! You wanna jump?
Both: *bends down to look*
Both: No!
Both: *laughs*
Him: Stupid question.

Things that make me happy

2008-02-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

God
P.B.F
Cake
Lizzie
Parables, TOG and WOW
Supermarket
Baking
Church friends
Pretty costumes
Cousins, Grandparents and Godma
Singing
Good music

what makes you happy?

KISS

2008-02-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

WHAHAHAHAHA!
L'Arc~en~CieL's new album KISS.
Just got it today... yayness~

"i like you"

2008-02-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

words that are not ment to be said too early.
words that can utterly ruin one's friendship.
hurry!
hold it back before it is too late!

Nihongo no Kurasu

2008-01-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

Japanese classmates and Hiroko sensei.
couldn't upload the rest.. dunno why.. stupid blogspot..

2008-01-22T17:06:00.000+08:00

irritated, pissed. very.
why ar? i really don't know.
maybe it was you, turned so materialistic.
what the hell happened to friendship?
i guess material items are more important to you now.
bye.

you people don' thave mouth is it?
you could have just asked.
such words like courtesy and considerate exists.

irritated.

or maybe im having my pms.

the retard is now confused?

2008-01-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

oh my oh my
now what? now what?
im confused, am i confused? or do i think im confused?
bout 2 things now. both impt but one of which is stupid, stupid?
really stupid? don't know.

shall pray for answers.

To Dad

2008-01-18T07:43:00.000+08:00

although i really love you and its partialy my fault for what happened.
im sorry.
but you need to take care of your ego and learn how to apologise.
and stop assuming you know what im thinking.
im sad to say that we are quite different people.
and have you noticed?
we can never hold a serious conversation. ever.
because at the end of everything you just want me to do what you want.
you just want me to listen to what you have to say, communication is a 2 way thing.
its going in one direction for now.

im sorry that i didn't turn out the way you wanted me to.
i have never pretended to be someone else

will it happen?

2008-01-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

how long are you willing to spend time with me?
will it stop?
will it be like the past?

i hope not.

Sometimes

2008-01-06T11:47:00.000+08:00

you so cute i just wanna hug you.

For my P.B.F

2008-01-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

You are the one who has always been there.
You have always been the one i depended most on.
You are the one i trust most.
And you know i don't just trust anybody.
We have shared countless of tears, joy and happiness.
And the occasional stressful moments of our lives.
We know we cannot hide anything from each other.
Because somehow, i cannot take it, i will tell you.
Because somehow, you cannot take it, you will tell me.
You are the only one that can read me like a book.
I have yet to meet another person, as superb as you.
If you know what i mean. ha.
You have endured my endless whines and madness.
Words alone can never be enough to describe how much i treasure you.
And I can never ever thank God enough, for you.

Angelyn, you are my irreplaceable P.B.F

Photo credits to mel, taken from her blog

goodbye?

2008-01-02T15:33:00.000+08:00

was it longing for each other?
or was it plain wanting to say good bye?

Hello 2008

2008-01-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

Its still Christmas! Its still Christmas! I Refuse to believe its over!!!
Love last year's Christmas to bits.
still cant get use to 2008.
still abit confused.
maybe too much partying and sleeping patterns disturbed i feel like I'm in the US! ha, i think I'm mad already.
new year's resolution!
good bye hospital food! no more! no more!
Thank God i haven't took more than a spoonful.
disgusting creepy food.

The Swan Princess

2007-12-27T00:58:00.000+08:00

I always remembered when we were young, weekends were movie manias at our grandmama's place. My cousins and i would pick our favourite cartoons and we will sit in front of the TV the whole afternoon. we used to watch cartoons like Tom & Jerry, Land before time(dun really like this, not a big fan of dinosaurs)and i will always pick The Swan Princess.

I remembered i have watched it several times, but i didn't really understood what was going on until it was aired on TV many years later. when i have grown up and my English improved that is.

It's like Swan Lake made into animation minus the ballet shoes and tutus. I must say i quite enjoy it. There was the nonsensical sidekicks like the frog who always dreamed about being a prince and the bird that is always silently helping and doing most of the work. They were half the reason why i like the movie. The love life between the main characters wasn't as cliche as the love at first sight nonsense. it showed their childhood life and how they hated each other when they were young and love slowly blossomed.

I'd like it better if prince Derek had a better hairstyle, we had the same hairstyle when i was in primary 3. And i still don't understand how a swan, yes a swan can faint due to heartache. Ok, maybe because she is human inside the bird, but people do not faint of heartache do they?

Here is the song, sang by Odette and Derek. Enjoy~

Odette:
If I could break this spell
I'd run to him today
and somehow I know he's on his way to me
Derek, you and I were meant to be

Far longer than forever
I'll hold you in my heart
It's almost like you're here with me
Although we're far apart

Derek:
Far longer than forever
As constant as a star
I close my eyes
and I am where you are

Odette:
Sure as the dawn brings the sunrise
We've an unshakeable bond

Derek:
Destined to last for a lifetime
and beyond

Far longer than forever (Far longer than forever)
I swear that I'll be true (I swear that I'll be true)
I've made an everlasting vow
To find a way to you

Both:
Far longer than forever
Like no love ever known
and with your love
I'll never be alone

Odette:
Far longer than forever

Derek:
Much stronger than forever

Odette:
and with your love
I'll never be alone

i ate people

2007-12-24T11:52:00.000+08:00

broke lots of arms, legs and heads.
ate them too.
spend lots of time with pbf, definitely one of the best Christmas prep.
its Christmas eve today.
HOW ARE YOU FEELING RIGHT NOW?

crazy

2007-12-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

Don't say you love me if you don't mean it because i might do something crazy like believe it.

too much dreaming...

2007-12-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

i think i was fooled.
i read too much into actions.
misunderstood i guess.
maybe i should stop daydreaming so much.
this should stop.
this dream should stop.
now.

messed up

2007-12-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

i dunno if im thinking with my head
somebody help..

Birthday and Bruises.

2007-12-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

^_^
i very like my birthday this year.
thanks to TOG and Parables.
you guys make my life full.
LOVES!

aiyo, i hurt may leg again..
first i fell down on the escalator.
second, i had terrible blisters.
then now i cut my leg.
During attachment, quite bad actually, tore my stockings and bled.

that's it man. no pretty dresses for Christmas.
my legs look abused.

YAY~

2007-11-27T15:07:00.000+08:00

Yay~ 2 papers down..

bye pharmocology~

bye fundamentals of nursing~

<--click on it, bunny moves. ^-^

happy~

2007-11-24T19:31:00.000+08:00

haha, i finally know how to upload pics..
so happy~

Iris Pallida

2007-11-24T00:52:00.000+08:00

i fell in love with this flower recently.

its the iris pallida.

i saw it first in Romeo X Juliet, where the irises represents the Capulets and the roses represents the Montagues.

i tot the flower didn't exist, until i did a Google search.

its a flower that can be found in Tuscany and can only be harvested by hand.

i have a feeling that i will fall in love with it's scent.

oh how i wish to have a whiff of it.

more pretty pictures!

bumps and bites..

2007-11-22T23:46:00.000+08:00

i was quite irritated this whole day.
i tot i had something stuck in my shoe.
but when i got home i realised it was a mosquito bite..
ON MY SOLE!!!
damn that mosquito..
i shall track you down..
squish you..
then make you into soup..
you will never live another day to suck anymore blood..
any idea how horrible it is to have an itchy bump on a ticklish site..
its TORTURE!!!

*grumbles*

Audrey Hepburn's party!!

2007-11-11T15:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAURIE!

was quite surprised many ppl dressed up, the things ppl do for laurie ah.. lol..
didnt realise we actually stayed next to OCH until i woke up the next morning..
probably too dark for me to see.. stupid me..

Laurie was so cute. she is like this short version of Audrey Hepburn. lol.
Larrisa was avril, haha..

JARED was the best! haha, he came with blue paint all over. yes nightcrawler..
love his tail, so cute!
we were eating toasted marshmallows, and he got the sticky stuff all over him. the best part was he got marshmallow stuck to his tail.
when light made the place visible in the morning there was blue paint everywhere.. lol.. on the steps, in the toilet even in Josh's face..

when the party was over, dora, joel, charm and me ate and ate until 4am then we slept.. man i felt like a pig..

Buzy Buzy Packed Month...

2007-11-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

It's been long since i blogged.

School started, now my exams are coming.

Talk about fast.

With silly projects and endless research materials to look through, how to breathe ar... -_-''

new term, new subjects.

Haha, i now study pharmacology! i feel like a medical student! ^-^

Japanese basic Lev 2 is making me wanna cry...

Blame it on my laziness for not making an effort to memorise all the Jap characters.

Now my books are all in Japanese.. somebody help me.

I have sports this term too! Haha.

I took ballroom dancing! so fun!

Laughed so hard i got headache on the first lesson.

All the cha cha chas and new yorks were not helping...

Among the hustle and bustle I'm looking forward to 2 things.

Laurie's 21st birthday party and the combined camp.

need to get my headpiece this wed in time for sat!

When strangers become friends

2007-10-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

During my 3 weeks of attachment my feelings have gone up and down, many times.
Working with strangers and meeting different characters in life.
From the very old and demented to the very worried grandson that keeps watch by his grandmother's bedside every night.
Looking at patients is like looking at books, they each have a story to tell.
By the end of the 3rd week they are no longer strangers, they have became my friends.
Both my patients and fellow student nurses.
My clinical instructor then said to us,
'the world is round we will meet each other again.'

The Risk

2007-10-04T00:33:00.000+08:00

The lord has given me another chance.

I have fallen once too many times.

Has the courage and confidence I lost returned?

Will I succeed or will I fail.

I will never know until I try.

Should I take such a risk again?

I guess only time will tell.

Next week

2007-10-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

next week is my last week of attachment

next week I'm meeting Jill and Angelyn for coffee

next week I'm flying off

next week is so exciting

next week is so unpredictable

next week, what shall i find?

Romeo X Juliet

2007-09-29T00:38:00.000+08:00

In the depths of my teared-up eyes
There’s your unchanging figure
Where will the world continue to?
The words from the days have ceased
The freezing, stormy nights
Continue onto the still unseen you, too
Please tell me, oh the wind that spreads across the ocean
Prayers surpass time
Prayers surpass time

my hands are so small, they cannot carry so much happiness, they will break.
-Juliet to Cordelia

p.s: English translation of Inori, opening theme of Romeo X Juliet.

Im going to see my husband!

2007-09-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am going to see my husband. Finaly after the long wait. I havent seen him for quite awhile. suppose to meet him in japan, but i can't get the tickets. So i will be meeting him in Korea after my attachment. Sashimi, i've missed you so much. Everytime i step into the hospital i think of you. Soon my love, i will see you again.

P.S: smart people will understand my post, although its 90% crap. And im more excited bout the coming week, again only smart people will know.

Cupcakes!

2007-09-25T22:50:00.000+08:00

Hello! This post is dedicated to my cupcake fans! haha

I'm sharing the recipe here with you people, do try it out at home if you can.

You will realise its so much fun making them with your loved ones.

This recipe is for the cupcakes my mom, Angelyn and I made for The Jeweler's shop production party.

For the cake you will need:

125g butter, softened.
2 teaspoons finely grated orange rind
110g caster sugar
2 eggs
150g self-raising flour
50g plain flour
40g almond meal
65g craisins
60ml orange juice
2 tablespoons milk
AND LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE!

For the fondant you will need:

2 teaspoons gelatine
1 1/2 tablespoons water
2 teaspoons glucose syrup
240g icing sugar
80g extra icing sugar
food colouring

For the butter cream you need: (this is the reason why i made cupcakes ^-^)

90g butter, softened
1/4 teaspoon orange essence
110g icing sugar
1 tablespoon milk
food colouring

Procedure:

1. Make fondant. Set aside walnut-sized portion.

2.Dust surface with icing sugar, roll remaining to thickness of 3mm. Cut out 18 flowers using 3 cm cutter or 36 flowers with 2 cm cutter.

3. Divide the walnut-sized fondant into 3, colour each with a different colour. Roll tiny balls for flower centers. Brush flower centers with water to secure coloured balls.

4. Preheat oven to moderate (180 degrees Celsius or 160 if your oven is fan forced). Line muffin pan with paper cases.

5.Beat butter, rind, sugar and eggs with electric mixer until light and fluffy.

6.Stir in sifted flours, almond meal, crasins, juice and milk. Fill cupcake cases, smooth surface.

7.Bake large cakes for 35 mins, small cakes for 25 mins. leave on wire rack to cool.

8. Make butter cream.

9. Spread cakes with butter cream using a spatula, decorate with flowers.

Fondant

Sprinkle gelatine over water in a small bowl. Stand small bowl in simmering water, stirring until gelatine is dissolved. Add glucose. Place half the sifted icing sugar in a bowl. stir in gelatine mixture. Gradually stir in remaining sifted icing sugar. Knead on surface dusted with extra sifted icing sugar until smooth. Enclose in plastic wrap to prevent drying.

Butter cream

Beat butter and essence with electric mixer until light and fluffy. Beat in sifted icing sugar and milk. Mix colouring of your choice.

Glossary
orange rind- orange skin without fibre (the white part directly underneath the skin)
craisins-dried cranberries. Think raisins, only cranberries.
almond meal-grounded almond. Think grounded nuts, only almond.
gelatine-comes in powder form, a small bottle. ask the staff at phoon huat.
glucose syrup-glucose, sticky transparent liquid form. ask the staff at phoon huat, or u can get some from me.

Tips and hints
Ingredients are available in most supermarkets, for first timers i suggest go to phoon huat, there is one at sembawang mrt station. You can find everything there.

Soften butter does not mean melted butter, to ensure your butter doesn't melt, place your butter in a cool place. If the whether is warm, take out the butter 45 mins b4 making the cupcakes.

Bring out eggs and ensure that they are at room temperature when using them, it can affect the outcome of the batter.

Coat cutters and fingers with icing sugar when handling the fondant, its really sticky and can be really messy. When held too long in hands, the sugar in the fondant will start to melt and get sticky.

If you are not sure what kind of papercase to buy, stick to the safe colours like brown and white.
I like to use brown myself as there is a contrast in the topping and the base.

Last note:
Feel free to leave comments and questions for me, email me if you must.
Recipe taken from woman's weekly cupcakes book.
I've also reduced amount of sugar used. ^-^
I'm sorry i dun have pictures, try to visualise ok? i know i suck.. haha..

Sweet Love

2007-09-24T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today she was discharged. I walked pass her bed, saw her daughter packing her things. Then i asked her in teochew, how are you feeling today? you are going home today right?
Both herself and her daughter shook their heads winking at me with one eye, denying going back today. I later found out from the daughter, keep the news from her father first.
Because they know that he will get anxious over little things concerning his spouse, and he will start fretting over her.

Their love is so simple yet strong.

Such sweet love.

What is Love?

2007-09-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

Now that jeweler's shop is over it made me think about love even more.

I am pretty amazed by how our lives can be revolving around just that word, that simple meaning.

During my attachment there was this elderly couple, his wife was admitted into the hospital. It didnt stop them both from being away each other. Afraid that she would be lonely in the ward, he would come everyday, making his daughter send him from the nursing home to the hospital. He would come and sit next to his wife. Watch her brush her teeth, eat her meals and listen to her every word. Just having each other's company can make them so happy. How lucky they are to have each other.

I think this is what love is.